Showing Up Fully
I’ve always been highly sensitive. Even as a small child I felt way more than others thought I “should”. I would walk around with a constant wounding from all that I picked up and carried as my own.
I was told repeatedly that the problem was me. That I was too sensitive. That I was responsible for the pain I felt.
So, like many, I learned to shut it down.
To numb. To insulate. To hide.
I came to understand the hard way (which I’m starting to think is the only way to understand) that this is not sustainable.
It’s actually impossible.
I was not built to not feel.
Denying and ignoring this truth is what eventually broke me.
For the window into that experience, please read this: http://www.truthloveandconnection.com/my-story-the-short-v…/
This cracking open, this baptism by fire, forced me to feel everything I had been avoiding. Forced me to deal with the discomfort of healing.
Through this painful, accelerated growth I learned how to process, to feel what I felt and not hold onto it as if it were my own. I learned to release. And through that practice, came to understand the incredible power of heightened sensitivity.
I had thought that Truth Love and Connection (a movement I started about a year ago) would be centered around Postpartum mental health and trauma recovery. Since that had been the catalyst for my intense growth. I expanded my knowledge and advocacy in this area. I pursued it diligently because I assumed this transformative experience would become my life’s work.
I came to discover, through persistent pursuit of what felt in alignment, that this had been the vehicle to get me to my knowing, not the actual work I am meant to do.
Coming Out of the Spiritual Closet
This journey has taken me down a powerful path of spiritual connection. I’ve spent the last two years diving deep into many ancient cultures and practices. Studying earth based religions and shamanism. Participating in Native ceremonial work. Studying current thought leaders in consciousness. And looking for the universal concepts throughout them all.
A couple weekends ago I participated in an intimate circle of highly conscious women in sacred ceremony. We built a massive Tipi and held ceremony with all women. Only women. Led by medicine women.
I was honored and humbled to witness every woman there surrender to deep release and transformation.
Professionally, I’m also a healer. In the last year I’ve been working in Hospice and have found the work to be incredibly meaningful.
When I was younger I found this constant giving to be extremely depleting. A natural impulse that left me empty. Many of you understand this exhaustion well.
I’ve learned that just as I was not responsible for everything I felt, these feelings and beliefs were not truly of me. They were not mine.
The trick, the elevation in consciousness, comes from differentiating what’s yours and what’s not.
Once you get that figured out you can feel into the universal connectedness of everything.
Everything is energy. Regardless of what you believe, this is an earth based fact. Everything you see. Everything you don’t. And for those of us that are highly sensitive, we already innately knew this.
The ability to identify what was mine and what was separate led me to understanding how to tap into a universal source of energy. A new modality of healing.
Call it energy work, healing, prayer, intention, meditation, the words don’t matter.
Since this source energy was not of me, opening it to others never left me depleted. Becoming a channel for source energy meant I could fill myself up first, then fortified, healed, I could let this infinite source of light and love overflow from me.
The healing energy was not of me, but through me. So in this practice, the healer is also healed.
Pursuit of clarity and intention to embody my highest purpose has led me to remembering who I truly am and what my purpose is in the world.
This is what I do. Who I am. I have a huge capacity for holding space for others.
I am a bearer of light, and my job is to help others be the same.
If you’re still reading this, chances are you are also a light worker. And if you are, you’ve experienced a lot of suffering.
It doesn’t have to be this way. You are meant for more.
You can be a clear channel for healing energy. For light. For love.
Together we can anchor in the light and embody the change we hope to see.
I have been developing a program for empaths and sensitives called:
Guided Illumination: Healing the Lightworker.
To learn Mastery of this gift. To evolve from victimhood to Lightworker.
If this resonates with you, please contact me for further support and information.
Now is the time.